Friday, January 04, 2008

The Worst Week Ever

I usually don't blog much about work. Mainly because I've had a pretty cushy job for many, many years. I know what I'm doing, it's a piece of cake, I felt like I got paid well. Since the company was purchased at the end of November however, it's been SO incredibly busy that I can't seem to even enjoy my job.

I almost started writing out a detailed bitch-fest about what's been going on this week, but the bottom line is this: I want to do a great job. I feel, at this point, like that will be impossible to accomplish. It's only going to get worse before it gets better and I feel like it's sucking my life energy out of me. I'm not the type of person that lives to work. I work to enjoy the very full life I have outside of work. And as previously mentioned, I don't think they're paying me enough money for the amount of work they're asking me to do. I can only hope that this is only transitional and it will all calm down over the next few months.

I don't need (or want) to be told by a peer that I should start "checking my emails on the weekend." It's not happening. I don't need someone to joke around saying, "Vacation? What's that?" When he said that, I just gave him the death glare and said, "Don't even joke about that. Because I will quit. Right. Now." And I would.

I laughed (I really am awful at hiding my feelings about anything) when he was trying to calm me down by explaining to me that my success at the company was totally dependent on me. "You control your own destiny," he said. I looked at him and said, "Yes, I do control my own destiny." Translation: I don't need this job or any shit from any of you!

And then finally, events today: My boss announced today that he has resigned as president of our company. I am completely sad to hear this. I've worked directly for him for almost 10 years. I am going to miss him SO much.

Wow, this week has totally sucked work-wise. And I know it's just going to get worse. Ugh.


Yehuda said...

"you control your own destiny" is a way of saying that if you pretend to value the company more than you value your friends, relationships, health and sanity, then you won't get patronized and dinged when they give you your report card this quarter for having a life.

If you're happy with your conditions now, ignore it. If you aren't get out. If the only thing that matters to your life is status at work, start working late hours.

Been there ... actually, still there.

swaits said...

Just go to work, be a good little worker. But, meanwhile, figure out the next place. Don't EVER burn a bridge. NEVER.

Why not follow your boss? He obviously likes you. Won't he have a spot for you at his new gig?

Stephanie said...

Yehuda - I absolutely value having a life. I don't want to have the type of life that revolves solely around work. If this is just temporary, I'm probably going to be fine, but it certainly wouldn't be my "lifestyle" choice.

swaits - My boss has a non-solicitation agreement, so I can call him to see about work, but he can't contact me. So, we'll see how things go here. He's convinced that this is a HUGE opportunity for me, so I'm going to do just what you're suggesting. If I can just get through the next few months, I think it'll be OK. I think I need to start exercising before going to work so I'm ready to take on the day! :-)

CH said...

This is not atypical of American business these days. The line between work and home is becomming more and more blurred every day as long as it benefits the company more than the employees. The sad part is that most Americans will have to adapt if they want to keep working because of all of the outsourcing. This is particularly true in my line of work (technology - programming). I am told the same nonsense every day (You are in control of your career). This must be what they are teaching MBA students this week. How can I compete with an offshore employee making $7,000 when I need $70,000? All I can do is infinitely available and my family pays the price. Changing careers probably will not help me either. The bar keeps getting raised every year. Corporations institute stricter review processes every year and use the perceived dowturn in the US economy to justify poor pay increases. Ok, I am starting to sound bitter. :)

Stephanie said...

LOL - Yes, but I totally get you! I was sounding pretty bitter when my friends took me out for drinks on Friday night too!!!

I have thought about this a LOT this weekend and I think I am just going to give it everything while I'm at work, but turn it off once I'm out the door. And, I won't be staying 11-12 hours a day. Every once in a while is fine, sure, but not on a regular basis. I'm just not going to do it!

How about this? Let's just win the lottery and then we won't have to worry about any of this stuff!! :-)